Good-Bye 2009

Today is the last day of the year ('09) I can count how many times I have gone out on New Years Eve and it ain't pretty. I can count how many times I have gone out this year and it ain't pretty. Must change that for the new year.

I do have some resolutions:

1 Lose the weight. J and N are too old for me to be using them as an excuse, not that I do but still.

2 De clutter the house. Easier said then done. I am willing to give it a good try though.

3 Get out of the house more with and without children.

4 Spend more time with the man of the house without children and out of the house.

5 Be a better parent. Seriously even if you are you can always try harder.

See you next year!

Sickies

I guess this wasn't the season for us to be healthy and well.

Since September when the kids got sick they have been having off and on coughs and colds. Ugh. So yet again they are sick and while I am glad that it is not major it really stinks. The last 2 nights J has had a fever. Thankfully his runny nose is just about gone but his cough is alive and kicking. I put the humdi in his room and that seems to be helping?? Now Miss N had a fever last night and this morning when she woke up. She has been coughing and has a runny nose. I am tempted to put the humdi in her room after she is sleeping seeing as she does not want it in her room. The girl is seriously stubborn and when her mind is made up there is no changing it.

Now I could take them to the Dr. only to have them tell me that it is just a cold and to watch their breathing and put a humdi in their rooms. Then if they feel the need one or both of the kids will get a breathing treatment. Yeah not fun when your 2.5 yr old tells the Dr. right away "No Smoke" "No Smoke" and your 4.5 yr old is saying "We don't need shots". Good thing it's once adult for every child. lol! It cost a bunch the last time we took them to the Dr. Well actually Miss N cost us more than Mr. J because she had a breathing treatment.

Lets hope that they don't give me back my just getting better cough that I probably gave to them in the first place. Even though I thought I was careful and had a no kiss on the lips rule. Miss N did not like that one bit. lol!

 

What the Snow!

I could of swore someone told me that it was going to be a mild winter. They must not be from the cold, rainy, snowy and sunless state of Illinois. We have used the snowblower like three times in the last week. Now I know it could be worse like 24" worse. Hey when you haven't seen the sun in like over a week and it has rained pretty much from the 23rd and then changed to snow on the 25th and has been snowing since you get down in the dumps. Heck I am starting to wonder if Spring is ever going to get here. It finally stopped snowing for now and the sun even peaked it's head out for a bit. Not long enough that I can see our driveway but never the less it came out. Now I just have to deal with cold tems and blowing winds. That will make driving on the back roads fun. Well it doesn't really matter since both kids have colds and coughs, we shouldn't be out and about anyways. Must be better for preschool otherwise J will flip. He has been asking to go to school for the last couple of days.

Back on the subject of the snowblower, I asked Mr. G if he has been kicking himself in the butt for not buying one sooner. His answer "Yes". Yep I kinda figured since it has only been taking him like 30-45 mins to do the driveway, put salt down and shovel little sidewalk. The best part is I don't have to hear him complain about his back. Yippie!!!!

Only a little over two months left of snow months and then Spring should be knocking on the door. I am counting down the days till there is sun shine, blue skies, the first sight of a robin and a little bit of green grass.

Cold

I know that Winter doesn't start till the 21st but dang it is cold and the snow is on the ground. It even prompted us to buy our 2nd snowblower. Yes I said 2nd, but not like a his and hers deal more like the last one we bought we returned right away. Ok more like my husband returned right away. You see it didn't fit in the truck and instead of asking to borrow a larger truck or even taking the thing out of the box, it went right back into the store. Luckly they didn't charge us a restocking fee. So pretty much I have been not letting him live it down and the snow finally broke him down.

On the topic of snow we have had our first snowfall and was quite surprised at how much we didn't get. It was going to be the 1st snow fall of the season and it was going to be big, I am talking like 7" - 13" big. Yeah for us though it turned out to be more like 4" if that at the most. I can say it was wet and heavy and not ideal for shoveling but great for making a snowman. We didn't make a snowman that day because I had one child Miss N inside all alone and if you are a mom (or a dad) you know that a 2 yr old can and will get into anything. We didn't label Miss N "Trouble" for nothing. lol So this snow is what prompted my loving husband to buy our 2nd snowblower. I am loving that we bought one and I am looking forward to using it on days that he is not home. This will make it easier to have more time to actually play in the snow with the kids. I might just buy a pair of snow pants for myself. =]

Now that Winter is here she better not take her sweet time to leave. I am already counting down the days till Spring is here.

Some days I want to just yell at the top of my lungs to everyone to “Be quiet”, “Stop the drama”, “Stop being rude” and “Be fair”.  Now these aren’t for everyone but quite a few people need to hear most of these phrases. Ok the “Be quiet” one is just because I have a horrible migraine and I just want some quiet in my house. =] But really I am so tired of hearing about rude e-mails, being rude to someones face, causing drama, instigating the drama, and making things so it fits your schedule. Seriously who does that crap??

I am so annoyed with people it makes me want to stay in my nice warm house (it’s quite cold 24*) away from people. I can only guess what will happen when I do venture out and see these people that need to hear my yelling. Ugh I am dreading it. I try and do something right (in my eyes it’s right) and it only takes one person to make everything come crashing down.

So to that one person, Thank you for knocking down something that people think is a good thing and are glad that it was created.  You are now banned. =]

Closed Door

So remember “A” aka my bff? Well, she unfriended me on Facebook yesterday. I am feeling very glad but at the same time hurt and sad.

I am glad because now I can finally say what I have been wanting to say to her.  Now I will not feel guilted into trying to make things better till we have our next big fight. Which will be about the same damn thing.  She’s never there for me emotionally or physically. But I am there for her.

I am hurt because that she didn’t even give me a reason as to why  she was unfriending me. Granted I haven’t exactly written her back but I have my reasons. She said that I could still be her FB (Facebook) friend so I could see the kids, in pictures of course. I guess that is not happening now? Even if me not responding back to her is the reason I think I should be told that. Ok maybe I am being selfish just a little. I can admit that. =]
I am sad because it really truly ends a friendship that I truly loved and thought would last forever. Granted I am talking about the friendship that was from five years ago but still. The last five years have been awkward, confusing, hurtful and lonely.

I know she is sad also but I really need her to actually tell me she is sorry for leaving me in the dust and not being meanly about it either. This is the same thing I have been trying to tell her for the last five years and she still doesn’t get it. If she were to tell me that she was gonna change and be that friend that she was five years ago would I still want to be her friend. Hmmm tough really tough. I might but something tells me that she won’t change.

So I better get to writing that letter and let her know that exactly the friend that she has been. No worries I will say my faults also. I am not that mean and I also realize that a friendship is a two way street.

Switches

How many times can J and N not listen. Being that J is 4.5 and N is 2.5 I expect one of them to listen better than the other. Yeah not happening in this house.  I have told them countless times to keep the basement light on and somehow it finds it’s self off.  Now I should have pulled them upstairs but the thought of them being way too loud in the kitchen is nerve racking and headache producing.  You see J doesn’t have a volume control switch. I have been trying to locate it for quite some time. I tell you I can hear him from blocks away. I am hoping one day I will find the switch for both the listening and the volume control. I will turn the one on and the other down.
Today they have been either fighting or just not listening.  So today I will be dragging their little  butts out of the house for a little walk maybe even to the park if the sun continues to shine.  It is cold here but not too cold that we shouldn’t enjoy the sun.  I am hoping that a little fresh air will change their attitudes and maybe even turn on the listening switch for a bit. A mom can be hopeful right? =]

Rain

I swear it has rained all spring, summer and now fall. At this point I am ready for snow. Now I am not a snow type of girl. It’s pretty like the first snow and then the first big snowfall, then it’s just ugly and gross. Everyone makes tracks in it and it gets dirty from all of the wet on the roads. Nothing says pretty like black, brown and white snow right? Yeah not so much.  It’s also pretty when it’s somewhere else. If I didn’t have snow at all I would be fine with it. If I missed it that bad I would beg G to take me on a mini vacation where it was cold and snowy.

Now back to the rain. I really should look up how many days it has rained and compare that to how many days of sunshine we have had.  I bet rain wins. Heat didn’t win this summer that’s for sure. Our bill was quite low and we had the windows open when it wasn’t raining. How much more rain can we get????
Mother Nature I am begging you to bring back the sun. I miss the warmth of the sun as does my house. I am tired of turning on the heat to keep us warm. I shouldn’t be turning on the heat just yet. Ok well at this point of the year I might be.  I am tired of waking up to rain hitting the windows, and dreary skies. It stinks not be able to take the kids to the park or play outside.

So Mother Nature if you are listening please bring the sun and the fall temps back!

Grateful

On a day like today I like to have the windows open and the breeze winding through the house and the sunlight warming the floors. Ok the sun is kinda hiding more than shining.  I have both and for that I am grateful. I have a loving husband (we’ll call him G), two great kids, and an awesome cousin and a family that is all well and thriving.  I am grateful.

Been Awhile

Having no desire to write is not a good thing. Now granted there have been a couple of ties that I could of but didn’t feel the need to type it out. Sometimes I tend to jump around and thoughts get jumbled and then it’s just a mess. Anger and being upset tend to get in the way of my thoughts coming out the way they should.
So today lets talk about friendship. First lets give a definition of what it really means:  I grabbed this from  Dictionary.com

Friendship
noun
1 the state of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person’s friendship
2 a friendly relation or intimacy
3 friendly feeling or disposition

Ok now that we have that out of the way,  lets discuss why people have no clue on how to be a friend or be able to maintain a friendship. So I have this “friend” (lets call her A) we have been friend for quite some time and by quite some time I am talking like 15 years close to pushing 20 years. Anyways thing have been rocky for the last 5-6 years. I gave it my heart and soul in the beginning and now it’s at the end and I get nothing. Now yes I am writing this from my point of view and I am not placing all of the blame on “A” since friendship is a two way street. I just feel that since we hit a fork in the road like 5-6 years ago she choose the left path and I chose the right path. She claims to be the person she was years ago but I just have disagree with her. She might as well be a fresh 21 year old. I am not sure who she is and quite frankly I am not sure I really want to get to know this new person.

I have had a bunch of time to think about it and dwell on it and I just can’t even drum up the right words to tell her to stop giving me the guilt trip and own up to your mistakes. She does this every time and then I feel like an ass and fix what is or went wrong. I went back and read some of our arguments and it the same things every time. It’s like she never even hears what I am saying and it’s the same thing. She would rather go out and be with her single friends with no children than come and hang out with her friend with children. Mind you she has children but is divorced so she can go out. I am not saying that she shouldn’t go out crap I would if I could. We last hung out back in May of this year just the two of us. I am trying to figure out how she things that is a friendship. She has come over to show us a puppy and she stayed for an hour tops. We met at a park once so the kids could play but that was it. Oh and I walked with her at the MS Walk. I also went to her son’s b-day at CEC (Chuck E Cheese). She did come to both of my kids b-day parties but one of them she came in such a bad mood that I didn’t even want her there. Oh and at both parties she was texting with people. Not all of the time but enough that I told her that I would take the phone from her. Yeah she can’t stay off the damn thing and that bugs me. It never leaves her side and she never ignores it. So sad that I can count on  two hands how many times I saw her during the summer. Very sad and I shake my head in shame.
Now how much and I at fault for this friendship that has crumbled? About 50% maybe a little less. Hey I can’t go out to bars and if I could she would have her kids and couldn’t go out. See where the problem lies? Have I called enough probable not but when I did call she wouldn’t call me back. By the time she did call me it was to tell me of a new problem that she had. Phone calls get old when they don’t have anything to with yourself at all. Not that every phone call was like this but most were.  She hates when phone calls are so one sided so it makes me laugh becuase that how most of her phone calls are to me.

I am not really sure why I wrote this, maybe it’s because I just needed to get it out or it’s because I haven’t sent “A” her response back to her little letter. Yeah it was the same thing “Have a nice life, I will be fine, I have moved on, I am really happy” It’s the same thing she writes every time and it’s always I, I, I. I am not sure how many ties she has to tell me that she is fine, happy and has moved on. I am not sure she is really deep down happy or fine but I will never be the one to tell her. Does that make me a bad friend yes and no. First she wouldn’t listen and second let her figure it out on her own. No one learns from their mistakes from someone telling them.

So to “A” I do want to be your friend but to the person you were 7 years ago. I don’t want to be your friend to the person you are today. So if that means not being your friend by all means so be it. I wish you nothing but the best and hope that that happy life you are living and the friend that are supposedly your “Besties/Sisters” are around forever. I can pretty much guess they won’t be so I am sure you will come crawling back sooner or later (make it later than sooner ok) hopefully you will then be able to admit your wrongs and that you really were a shitty friend for the last 5-6 years.

♥Zillie♥

Pinky Swear Always aka PSA

So why Pinky Swear Always aka PSA? Well it is something that I always say with my little boy (we’ll call him J) and plan on doing with my little girl (we’ll call her N) when she gets older. I am not the creative type of person so I had to really think of something to call the blog and well Pinky Swear was taken so I added the Always and decided that PSA was quite a cool thing to call the bog for short. Yeah it was my excitement for the night. lol!

FInally a good wow wow to use

What is a wow wow you ask. Well it is a pacifier that my daughter has named wow wow. I have been on the search for a BPA Free one that was not orthodontic or flat or I had to order from another county. It took a long time trying to figure out what kind she like when she was a baby. But once we did it was pure joy. We ended up using the Gerber Round Soft Center pacifier. I just looked it up for a picture and they are being discontinued. I was wondering why they just updated the packaging if they are not going to sell them anymore. That was a waste of money.

So I was at BRU (Babies R Us) today getting some things for a trip. I went to see if they had the Gerber pacifiers (they don't) I came across these Nuby Natural Touch Pacifiers They are BPA Free and say so on the package. They were $5.49 not cheep but is anything baby related. They come two to a package and the colors are pink and purple or blue and green. They also have two sizes which I love, small (0-6 months) and medium (6+ months) The case that the pacifiers comes in is supposed to be used for storage, could use some work. I dropped it and it broke. I usually don't use the cases that pacifiers come with anyways.

My daughter loves them and she has not asked for the Gerber ones so I guess that is a good sign. Now to try and convince my husband to let me get rid of the Gerber ones completely and get the Nuby ones.

Sunny Days

I love sunny days. It reminds me that spring is here and summer is soon to come. Today it is sunny and a bit warmer that it has been the last couple of days. I would rather it been in the 70's but beggars can't be choosers.

So today after dinner or maybe after naps (which are happening right now) we'll go for a walk. Well it's more like I will walk and the kids will sit in the bike trailer. I live for the walks lately. I really should do it in the morning instead of after dinner but I think it tends to break up the day in the evening. I am pretty sure we have gotten our $169 worth out of the Bike Trailer already. I am so glad the hubby finally said yes.

Seriously I really like the trailer. I have a 3.5 yr old and 1.5 yr old and it could be a bit wider in the seating area for the kids. They are in there pretty sung but not complaining. They do have enough room for their legs though. It even has a storage pocket. Big enough for a cup or a small toy. There is plenty of storage in the back to take like a lunch or a couple of blankets with you. We put some library book in a bag back there the other day. I plan on leaving the bike helmet in the back so that way I don't have to search the house for them.The other day we took took a bike ride up to the library and while my husband had a bit of a hard time going up hills (the first time with it on his bike and first bike ride of the season) he said he really didn't notice that it was connected to the bike. Rule #1 when taking things out for the first time don't go somewhere unless it is a couple of blocks from home and not across a couple of main streets.

We went ahead and bought another connector for my bike so I can take the kids for a spin. I am looking forward to burning off some baby fat this summer. =]

So would I recommend this to a family member, friend or just some random person in the store? YES!

Not feeling it.

I am not feeling the name of the blog right now. It was fine for me the other day but now I am like "eh" So now I am looking for a new name for the blog. I want something that screams me yet when someone says the name they get what I am all about. I have been throwing around a few names and nothing has really stood out yet. Too bad I don't any fans quite yet then I could ask for help. Not that big of a deal I have a brain and I know how to use it. =]

There are some other things that I might want to mention. I am a horrible speller and I very rarely use punctuation and the grammar is probably not the greatest. Thank goodness for spell check. Too bad they don't have a grammar check on computers. I could really use it badly. I also like to use smiles but you won't have to see them all of the time. I am not smile crazy or am I? =]

So if you could careless about those things then I say Welcome to (looking for new blog name)! 

Welcome!

Hi my name is Jennifer, a stay at home mommy of two. We love to play outdoors in the summer and stay cozy and warm in the winters. Boy did that sound like a looking for add. =]

I am not really sure what direction I want to take the blog to. I know I want it to be exciting, funny, informative and just down to earth. I would love to be a reviewer but I think I am just not quite ready for that yet. I will have to give that some more thought before I jump right in. So for now I will write about what I know and see where it takes me.

I welcome you My Wild Life and I hope you enjoy the ride!