Sometimes I wish that life was different. Sometimes while on facebook I see into peoples lives and I want what they have. A husband that is home at night and weekends, friends, a nice house, money, couple friends to go out with. Sometimes I feel like I am drowning in my own world. I just keep waiting for my time to shine and I feel like it may never come.
Everyday I am reminded that my house is not for sale, I can't do moms night out, I can't go out on a date with my husband and I am stuck with my kids everyday. No escape and I feel trapped.
Have I mentioned that in a year I have gained 20lbs. UGH! Seriously I can't catch a break and no amount of not eating or even dieting is helping. At this point I just want to starve myself and see if that even helps. I'm sure it wouldn't because lets face it nothing ever goes my way anymore.
I sometimes wish that I had a ton of nieces and nephews to spoil and no kids. But at this point I don't see any spoiling happening ever. My kids are brats almost all the time and I just want to smack some sort of sense in them. Sigh If I could I would call Supernanny on their asses. Or worse case boarding school.
I am at the verge of just hating everyone and wishing for a fast forward button.
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